I don’t know how many people listen to songs on NetEase Cloud, and how many people experience loneliness and sadness in songs alone. For me, there are people I like in every song, and today I want to talk about the boy named First Love.
" etc. Will you hold my hand the next time you meet?"It was probably after the first date, I asked you this. Across the screen of the phone, I don't know if you blush, I can only stare at the reply you seem to hesitate for a long time: "That's not good." I know that you are a little shy boy, and it's the first time you fall in love. So it's okay, I take the initiative, and I slowly get closer to you.
"I don’t think I’m good-looking. Maybe I have to learn makeup and dress. I don’t remember when I became a little inferior. I was afraid that I was not good enough and that you would not like me. So I often ask you "When did you like me?" How do you like me? ", you always post a doge expression, telling me that I should be confident.
"I miss you, do you miss me? " This seems to be what I ask you every day, it seems to have become a small obsession. But every time you give a response, "It seems no eh." "Then I know that in your life, there are studies, work, games, and me, but it doesn't account for the majority.
"Good morning, it’s a bit cold, remember to wear more clothes." This is one of the few little warmths, after our conversation turned into a routine greeting of "Good Morning" and "Good Night". Lying on the bed and holding the phone, I also feel that you are very hard. I have to train in the winter. More than that, there are activities of the Bird Association on Saturday and weekend. I don’t have time to accompany me, so I’m willing to be good and try not toBring you the rest of your troubles.
"I'm a little scared, I seem to have gone into something bad." This is New Year's Day, and I will return to school at midnight. You replied: "Don't worry too much, it should be okay." I know you have a dinner in the student union. I remember it was very cold this day, I remember the deserted and quiet streets, I remember my lonely figure under the street lights.
"Can you think about me more and care about me more? You immediately replied: "I must miss you and care about you. "I haven't had time to be happy, too late to send you a sweet, cute emoticon package, you send again: "Then I will go to play games, good. "So, I know, maybe Valentine's Day is not suitable for me either, just like the little skirt I wore on the second date, it is not suitable for me either.
"Let’s be good friends . "This sentence is what I said. I can’t perceive your happiness, anger, sorrow, and joy across the phone screen, and you don’t know that I was crying in the rain and crying until my tears dries. That rainy day became my memory. In a particularly bleak scene, a voice has been lingering in the ear, it said: Goodbye, my beloved boy. From now on weThere will be no intersection again, and goodbye is also a stranger.
Maybe this is a bit Sad story. Perhaps it is because I am used to playing the role that is hurt, the memory will be full of bitterness. I try to find those sweetness and emotions that have been overlooked, such as that sudden and inexplicable note, that a little rough Rubik’s cube, that badFallen apples, Christmas cards, and hugs at parting. . . The bits and pieces of memory that were picked up still make me cry. It's been so long. May be reluctant.
"You can ask me any questions in the future." This is probably your rightThe first sentence I said, I was stunned for a long time, thinking for a long time, I don't know why you are so enthusiastic. It's just that since then, I will look at you more, and faintly look forward to some casual encounters with you, such as in the cafeteria or in the school's small supermarket. However, I am also very shy. Seeing you from a distance, I will also want to hide in despair. Look, people are such complex creatures.
" Come out, let’s talk. "I returned to school after the holiday. I was worrying about how to get along with you. You suddenly appeared in front of my desk, knocked on the table with your fingers to signal me to look up. Maybe only God knows how panicked I am Right. You took me to the playground and talked about learning. The whole atmosphere is very relaxed, but because I am nervous, my pace is getting faster and faster without knowing it. You seem a little helpless, so you stopped and said to me: "Why are you going so fast? Let's go slowly, I'm so tired. "Then I knew why you took the initiative to help me, and that you are a very good boy. I was relieved and told myself secretly that we should not fall in love early, we are all so behaved.
"Did you understand the last math class? Ask me if you don’t understand. " I was a little flattered that I could be treated so special by you. The girl sitting with you may like you. She said to me in a slightly acidic tone: "Why is he so good to you? I really want someone to teach me homework. "I don't know how to answer, and there are ripples in my heart. This boy is so good, Maybe I should do something in return. Thinking that you often go to and fro in the cafeteria by yourself, and you don’t seem to be familiar with your classmates, so I decided to stay with you. Maybe you won’t be alone.
"Don't be too nervous before the exam. Take a few minutes to look at the formula." Holding the booklet you gave, I was at a loss. I just nodded blankly. . I keep sighing in my heart, this is really a very good person. Maybe time will really change a lot. For example, my feelings for you have gradually deteriorated in the inseparable inseparability from get out of class every day, from the initial gratitude to the blatant like. The reason is blatant, because I said "like" to you at the very beginning.
"Merry Christmas! "Maybe people who know how to be grateful are not too bad luck. The Christmas card I wrote to you turned out to have another meaning. You told me later that Christmas is your birthday. Surprised. Besides, there are more surprises. At that time, I smiled and said to you: "I will give you all your birthdays from now on. "You lowered your head and smiled, I remember.
"Hey, look, they both blushed."Before the noon singing started, I deliberately detoured by your side and gave you a Rubik's Cube. It was bought at a boutique shop at noon, although it seems that it is not exquisite now. I I dare not look up at you, nor look at anyone. I let my cheeks blush in the joking sounds of my classmates, getting hotter and hotter.
"Hey, it's me."You called in the middle of the night, and I got off the bed and picked it up in a hurry. You said let me think about the subject of liberal arts and science. But I am more stubborn and I don't want to change what I have identified. It stands to reason that going to a liberal arts class should be my best choice, but you are in a science class. Maybe that call, besides trying to persuade me, what else do you want to say. It's just that you didn't say anything until you hung up the phone.
"When you arrive in a new class, you still have to study hard." When you say this, you may not know it. At that moment, I will Passed out the card full of my favorites for you. The restless heart of the ping-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-pong-san-chilled. You are right, learning is the most important thing. I was silent for a while, and I arrived at the separate intersection, and then weWaved goodbye. It would be great if that road was a little longer, and it would be better to never finish.
"Classmates Hello, please call for me...", "It’s you, I know, I’ll call for you." My life in science class is not easy, and I miss you and rely on you. More and more intense.The distance from the third floor to the fourth floor seemed to exhaust all my strength. You are so good, our gap is like the entire galaxy. I have become less and less confident, and less and less dared to see you, I am afraid that I will not be able to catch up with you, afraid that I will fail all your efforts.
"Have you really decided?" You are a little surprised that I suddenly want to transfer to liberal arts class, I smiled and nodded. Because of this, I can have the opportunity to stand shoulder to shoulder with you and become as good as you. It's just that at that time, we didn't know that the opportunities for two people to meet will become less and less, and the distance will become longer and longer.
"I sing for you, listen carefully. Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, cough, cough" The second birthday to you is not In time for Christmas, I left school because of a cold and even sang birthday songsincomplete. I hope you are happy that day, even if I haven't been on the fourth floor for a long time.
"That The girls are watching you play basketball again!" I saw you glance at me without speaking. You didn't like to play basketball before, because you said it felt a little dangerous and easy to get injured. I openBegin to think about how many gaps are between us. You try sports you don't like, and you also play badminton and chess with other girls. But I still stayed in place. I didn't have many new friends. I still contacted my old classmates. Those few people were always around me. This kind of ignorance makes me a little bit sad, but also helpless.
"Can you transcribe this for me?" I feel very surprised when you come to me suddenly. Secretly happy and dare not be too obvious. The time for the third year of high school was very tight. I still pushed down all the homework and review, regardless of whether I would doze off the next day, and silently took the checkered paper and copied it till half past midnight. Before going to bed, I complained quietly to myself: Why didn't you study so hard?
"The timing is in the future. "When we walked down the stairs, I walked side by side. I knew our hands were touching, but I didn’t dare to look up at you. Maybe if we were brave at the time, we could fill this regret. We could be in the night. Under the concealment of her, I walked slowly back to the bedroom, even though the road was short. I often searched for your figure in the crowd, knowing when you will pass downstairs, knowing what color shoes you wear, and knowing that you are doing exercises. Position, know where to runA pulsating head is you...
The memories are too good, and misses will overflow. So I stopped writing. Some things should be cherished by time and polished by time, leaving only the sweet ones. "May no one you meet for the rest of your life be like me, and no one else I have seen for the rest of your life is like you. From now on, you will be different and happy." Time has passed so long, and now the ending is very good. ,Not force. It's also good to be good friends.